BLUE BIRTHDAY CAKES

This is brutal truth. Just as it is. I admit, I was sideswiped. As happens with so many of us who spend large amounts of time surviving the frantic daily race, however passionately and enthusiastically we run it, once we take a break, in an attempt to resurface whole again, the chaos catches up, and we get taken down… complete exhaustion, a suctioning of every life-giving force our mitochondria holds up in offering….
After the first few sun-filled days of holiday, what my body wanted most was to hang sloth-like in a striped green and blue hammock and flit between watching the beach ‘goings on’ and finishing a blog I had been working on.
Rachel had walked up from the beach, having had her fill of swimming, boogie boarding and sandcastle building, and was now in search of a fellow play-dough creator…
No tiny fraction, no whiff or inkling, no minuscule millimeter of my being felt like engaging in building gooey zoos and blue birthday cakes…. and although most often I launch into all sorts of adventurous playful activities…that particular morning I could hardly face the thought…
Delay tactic…. I told her that as soon as I had indulged in my next handful of freshly roasted salted cashews which lay in a plastic bag alongside me, I would join in and play along… I tried to prolong the chewing…. the swallowing…. the tongue churning…. in an attempt to find a few extra seconds to postpone the inevitable…
Her blue eyes looked up at me and locked on mine…”Mommy, when are you going to play with me?”
It struck me…hard….
I will never get this exact moment again. God willing, there will be many others, but there will never again be this exact moment, this exact opportunity to bond and connect with my little girl…
When the finality of this thought flooded through me, the value of the moment and her request became too precious to ‘flog off’. I mustered every microscopic energy cell within me, grabbed a chunk of squishy play dough and began creating alongside my little girl…
So many potentially beautiful moments of connection slip past us because we don’t grab them, because we take for granted that there will be more, because we don’t treasure the preciousness of their potential as much as we should.
Gooey green zoos and blue birthday cakes….
One chance for this moment. I will never get it again…
Grab hold of the moments… this exact one will never be yours for the taking again…. Relish it, savour it, and enjoy the richness of connection that comes from it…

With motherly love
Naomi ❤️

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